This Is For You
You came to me in the warmth of summer
I was afforded a home, a shelter
What I knew of melancholia
Became knowledge that had abandoned me
Loneliness had been my company
It was all I knew
You held my heart so accustomed to the cold
And I knew then what existed beyond my solitude
You left me in the dead of winter
And all that I am now is empty
I had forgotten the sting of loneliness.
I was unafraid in solitude,
But the fear of eternal isolation has found me
My body craves the warmth of your love
And now that I know of happiness
The pain of despair will consume me whole.
I reach for you in the cold night
To be met with your absence
An emptiness colder than a dead star.
In the darkness, I find that I fight
It’s with dread I see it makes no sense
To fight for one who no longer wants your arms
I reach for the warmth that you give
To find only a disparaging voice
That tells me loneliness is my fate
How did I lose all but the will to live
In only trying to stifle the deafening noise
That speaks of true love as only a naive tale
I reach for you, in the emptiness of the night
And I can swear on the life left in my bones
I can feel your warmth in my arms
With my eyes closed, in dreams where all is right
You have found your way back to your home
And in my dreams, your home is where I am.
The stark reminder of your absence lives in my unhappiness
And I will keep it close at hand
Written by Katelyn Emma Syiem
Edited by Naphtali Jordan Langstieh