I went unnoticed
A girl without a woman’s body
A boy in their eyes
I sat in the shadows
Unseen by all
Desired by none
I felt alone
I felt invisible
I felt unpretty
Until that day
When womanhood came
My being changed
My body softened
And for the first time
I was noticed
They cared what I had to say
They listened when I talked
They walked with me
Not because they had to
But because they wanted to
They admired me when I passed
Their whispers were ones of flattery
And not of mockery
My body was that of a woman now
I felt companionship
I felt visible
I felt pretty
They cared about me
They told me they loved me
They gave me drinks and drugs
They touched me
My body was not just mine anymore
They wanted it for themselves
It was never about me
Now I prefer the shadows for company
For there I left my innocence
I want to hide the curves
I wish the womanhood to leave
I miss that beautiful girl
Wish I could go back
Because now I don’t know what is worse
Not being seen for who you are
Or being seen for something you’re not
I feel empty
I feel exposed
I feel indistinct
Because now,
I’m noticed.